I Never Gave More to You than Half of My Heart

Half Empty.

Starting off a relationship, is what just everybody loves especially after sudden break-ups (sometimes, just to get over it). Half empty, because after you broke your previous relationship, you will only just give half of your heart.

Maybe because you don't want to get hurt again and just searching for someone to comfort you (not to get in-love all over again). Yes, you don’t want to fall in love again with the wrong person, you just want somebody to comfort you. You are just sick playing trial and error to somebody that gave you comfort after break-ups, you then realized that you only need their comfort on the time you only need it. Yes, you knew that you didn’t intend to be selfish with your love; you just want to let them know that you are not ready for another relationship (that you already thought might not work.)

Maybe because you thought that you don’t have that enough maturity to go for a serious relationship your other half want. Yes, you will tell that you used to puppy love with somebody and not to be serious with somebody; that you loved somebody just to feel that you are also loved and not to love somebody then to commit yourself to somebody. Your partner could only do is to wait and let you learn what love is as the day passed by.

Maybe because you are still in love with him and just looking for an alternative and pretend that someone is the one that you really loved (just to feel the love continuously.) Yes, you are being selfish (even you are not aware with it) to your boyfriend alternative. You know that he loves you with all of his heart but you gave only half of your heart because he is not the one you truly love, he is just an alternative and temporary lover, and always be.

Or maybe because you are just using another man just to get over on your previous relationship. Your fall-out boy, the one who loves you so much and you knew that he is always there to catch you if you fall out of love again. He is the only person that you could talk about relationship and the only heartbreak/stress reliever you have. But you knew that you could only give him half of your heart because you only treated him as your best friend or even a brother for you.

But you can't keep on loving your boyfriend just half of your heart.

Half Full.

A new relationship after you broke a numerous heart full of break-ups, thinking that your new boyfriend is the one that you want to grow old with. Suddenly, you see this guy, the guy that was tattooed in your heart, the guy that you first thought that he's the one.

Yes, you still loved everything about him, and then he made it more sensible just saying I can't stop loving you with just half of my heart. Half full, because you have these two guys fighting in the battlefield of your heart, not knowing who's to win because you’re the only one to judge. But you can't keep on loving your boyfriend just half of your heart and sharing the other half to your undisputed ex-boyfriend.

Dilemma is the only thing that you could feel if you are having this half full feeling. Feeling of loving two guys while having only one heart, yes and it could only do is to split the love load into two equal parts of your heart (not physically, emotionally rather.) Yes, if you are having that dilemma means you don’t know where to give your whole heart between the two guys fighting for love and giving all their love just to prove that its worth to give all their love to you because they expect that you will only choose one who deserves to give all your love too.

Maybe it is a full-feeling and it is not fulfilling to split the love into two guys you have trouble with. Fulfilling love is to fulfill your love that you promised when you get together as one and not to feel the full love of your other half just to know it is a fulfilled love. A full-feeling love is a love that you know that your other half is not giving enough love for your heart (maybe you can’t feel the love you need to feel to fill your heart tank.) And yes, if your other half doesn’t give you much love to fill your heart, you will find someone or maybe a someone special to fill the remaining space in your heart for love to feel that you are full-feel in love.

Or maybe, a fulfilling love that your ex-partner promised to you, now comes back to you to tell you that he is now ready to fulfill the love he promised to you, while your current partner is giving you that full-feeling love you want and need to feel to your ex-partner, and now you are the only to choose who is sorry right now. Who is to be set-aside to fulfill the love to a one deserving guy to let him full-feel the love he deserves.

Yes, it’s hard to choose when you know that the two guys loving you equally deserves for your love. It’s hard to choose when you don’t know the right or wrong choice because you will only know who is right or wrong person for you in the matter of time, and that’s the person who is going to love you for a lifetime.

The reality is, you can’t stop and you can’t keep on loving someone just half of your heart. You can't stop loving someone just giving half of your heart because giving someone a certain amount of your love (just half) can go a long way. And you can't keep loving someone (that someone you will only love) just giving half of your heart because it won't get any longer. Thanks for reading and God Bless!